Boy the last 48 hours have really been hard for me. I had to give up something I really love, and I have been physically sick for the last 24 hours because of it. I know your probably thinking that if something is that hard for you to give up, then you didn’t need to keep it anyway. Guess what? I agree! But, I loved it and was addicted to it. I couldn’t go a day without it and most days it was with me almost around the clock. If I went without it for more than a couple of hours, I would begin to get cranky and ill. What is it? Caffeine.
Now that I am past the headaches, I am upset at myself for allowing something to have such a hold on my life that I became physically ill over doing without. This is no different than a drug addict or an alcoholic being pulled to their addictions. Of course I then had to look deep in my life for other things that have a hold on me. As Christians I believe we are good at bargaining our desires into being okay. We love chocolates, sweets, and rich foods that make us obese and we reason that we are not addicts, yet we are.
Psalm 19:13 says, Keep back Your servant also from presumptuous sins; Let them not have dominion over me. Then I shall be blameless, And I shall be innocent of great transgression.
My prayer is Lord, search me. Look for those things in my life that have a hold on me. Reveal them and give me strength to put them away from me. Let nothing pass my lips that is not edifying to you or my body. Give me strength to say no. Heal my body of the desires that come.
